The feeling that more is or will be required of you if you are to get to where you want to.
Do you know it? It's the pre-turning point moment. When you want something (at this point you've realized you REALLY have to have it!) and you come to the conclusion that none of the "old tricks" will do. That doing things average just won't suffice! No. For this, a lot more sacrifice will be required; a certain amount of forgetting-dying to-self.
It's a funny feeling; a thrilling slice of anticipation and trepidation. Because on one end your heart can hardly contain the idea of finally realizing your dream. Why, it will be magnificent, stupendous...nothing short of utter joy! To think that "it" could be yours!!! And on the other hand, are YOU up to it? Are you ready for the work? The hard journey of discipline, diligence and endurance?? And if need be, can you really march to the beat of a completely different drum? Pause.
When I was younger, this feeling usually plagued me toward exam time,and esp. in the candidate classes. The call to do more...and be more. That's when I felt it significantly :) + also the constant gnawing feeling that often filled my young heart with anxiety; the feeling of a need to "draw closer to God", without even knowing how...(shrug)...Maybe I just wasn't ready then.
Lately though, this funny feeling comes even more often. And I now realize that it is God Himself speaking. My Creator is calling me, drawing me out and using all the unique elements of life to grow me into the person He made me to be. He does this to/for all His children. It's all part of a process that, I must admit, sometimes fills me with fear and apprehension, cause it's always stretch after stretch; can't get too comfortable! He is transforming us into Someone completely different from all we've ever known and been.
J E S U S! It's a tall order, but very much possible.
So the next time that funny feeling comes, despite all the fear and uncertainty; let's you and I go AHEAD and let God work. We can trust the outcome. :)
Do you know it? It's the pre-turning point moment. When you want something (at this point you've realized you REALLY have to have it!) and you come to the conclusion that none of the "old tricks" will do. That doing things average just won't suffice! No. For this, a lot more sacrifice will be required; a certain amount of forgetting-dying to-self.
It's a funny feeling; a thrilling slice of anticipation and trepidation. Because on one end your heart can hardly contain the idea of finally realizing your dream. Why, it will be magnificent, stupendous...nothing short of utter joy! To think that "it" could be yours!!! And on the other hand, are YOU up to it? Are you ready for the work? The hard journey of discipline, diligence and endurance?? And if need be, can you really march to the beat of a completely different drum? Pause.
When I was younger, this feeling usually plagued me toward exam time,and esp. in the candidate classes. The call to do more...and be more. That's when I felt it significantly :) + also the constant gnawing feeling that often filled my young heart with anxiety; the feeling of a need to "draw closer to God", without even knowing how...(shrug)...Maybe I just wasn't ready then.
Lately though, this funny feeling comes even more often. And I now realize that it is God Himself speaking. My Creator is calling me, drawing me out and using all the unique elements of life to grow me into the person He made me to be. He does this to/for all His children. It's all part of a process that, I must admit, sometimes fills me with fear and apprehension, cause it's always stretch after stretch; can't get too comfortable! He is transforming us into Someone completely different from all we've ever known and been.
J E S U S! It's a tall order, but very much possible.
So the next time that funny feeling comes, despite all the fear and uncertainty; let's you and I go AHEAD and let God work. We can trust the outcome. :)
i know that feeling ...oh so well and this post has reminded me of things i needed to remember.
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