Recently I was doing some personality tests...again. I had done these years earlier and figured out I am san-phleg...i.e my temperaments are predominantly sanguine and phlegmatic. The first time round it was just great to understand my make-up better; a few why questions were answered, to say the least. This time round, I found it to be a bit depressing. Where I had once seen positivity as a great strength, now it seems the erratic, superficial, unreliability of the sanguine personality was all I saw. I am a Children's discipler; my work involves a lot of forming real and deep relationships for the benefit of growth in godliness of the children I minister to. I CAN'T AFFORD TO BE SUPERFICIAL AND UNRELIABLE!!!!!!! Added to that the phlegmatic tendency to be laid-back and lazy... I mean I'm no Apostle Paul but surely...
I was worried, for a few hours (which I find is usually how long we sanguines can keep in the downs about stuff). Yet again, Lord; WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!! I am clearly not qualified. I don't care enough. I'm easily distracted. I forget easily.I'm not really that into details. I don't look beyond the surface...bla bla bla. Wait! Who am I kidding? If the day comes when I am superbly qualified to do what God has called me to before hand then, I don't know...but it hasn't come yet. So how come am here? Well, God called ME, with all my innate weaknesses,
God made ME just the way He wanted to. He designed my likes, dreams, abilities, family, life story. He's been in it all along, and even as I do my own self discovery; I only learn what He already knew was there. He knows my capacity, my capability. So instead of balking at the long list of weaknesses prevalent in my personality type; I could focus on growing my strengths, and allowing the Holy Spirit's discipline in my life to form me into someone more like Christ, I am not bound by what research and studies say about my kind of personality. I can use this knowledge to understand myself and others better, but this is not who I will always be. I am changing, morphing, growing into a personality far greater than any other on this earth. I am becoming the daughter that I was meant to be, BY GOD'S GRACE. :-D
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